its time for the sad and mean

sOo so many romantic blog about you in less then a week
bt i guess after those momments are gone is time to write sad and mean
i dont understand why you bein so dayum lame .dont wanna call me disappear with out a word
yeah i shouldt be asking my slef or wonderin this things i should of guess distances always wins
what you dont have close is basecially not urs...and when they say distance anit a bigg deal well
men was they wrong...i kindah stuck mah slef to belive that we could really work out that you bienin in d.r and me and tampa was jus a way to test our love out...!!!!i was stupid enough to actully belive them lies ..because ur a guy and me knoin that guys lie right infront of ur face image what you doin 10,0000 miles alway...it was like a fairytale a crazy love ilusion you kno the one that you wake up to every mornin lookin forward to gettin to the day ur going to be with the person you want/love...i felt you everywhere not only in mah heart,,i could feel ur kisses on mah lips i could feel ur had feellin on me..and its way beyond jus a touch cuz when i would sit in mah room and feel these things mah heart would start to jumpp...i guess what i really felt was all ur lies now im sure that some other girl is the one you like..maybe is cuz ur a guy and playin with girls feelins is what gets you tight........i tired of always fallin so bad why do i have to be so dayum easly fooled when it comes to guys...yeah imm try not to belive anythin that comes out ur mouth..im basecially jus gann keep livein mah life with out that beautiful illusion that made me simle...i really out of words some im endin it here...distance kills

feelin like shit

i hate feelin like this
i hate havein to feel this type of pain

thanks to mah ipod i lost my hearin aid...
i got the biggestest ear infection anyone could ever have

and i want it to go alway bt the doctors say its take time

time ugh wish it was now
im so tired of time holdin me down

im sOO scared i might go deafff
im so scared i wont be albe to hear him say
love again..

meng god make this go alway cuz i dont
like the sound of my ear drums leakin water out!!.

is like my brain is fallin...
please please

go go alway and dont come back no other dayy

pussy bitch

why she got to be so damn pusy she talk shit

and then gets scared when ppl wanna get at her for it

i mean you got all the dayum balls to talk shit

so when im in your face put up ur fist and throw a punch

bt no you have to run your mom..

thats what you call PUSSY BITCH WITH A DAYM MOUTH

i jus wanna kill the bitch right now

bury her 10,000ft down and then come back

teach her momma a lesson and sit mah ass down

i dont talk shit ..i jus handle mah bisneessssss..

so what ever go tell ur mom cuz i anit even much care..

ill handle ur shiit with one hand in the backk and mah middle finger in the air.....

haha fuck ass hoe messwith the wrong bitch..

if you havent notice imma grow up and let you spit

bt ass soon ass i turn around imma pop ur ass up and down haha

meng im so mad i could scream...imma end dis right here cuz mah words are too cruel for dis

i stay wonderin

i go from feelin safe to feelin scared about what

we have.IM sure that i love you and like i said before ill do anything for you

but then i think to mah slef im i gettin played by him does he really mean it when he says

his not the same.could i trust his words i mean distance is far,,and words dont mean anythin till

their proven...you tell me to trust and baybee thats what im tryin to do.but durin the day

i feel safe bt at night when im all alone with my thoughts i think to mah slef your playin GAMES

and that we arnt meant to be..i know you hate it when i think negative bout you bt you need to

understand your 20098478476234817457126587235 miles alway from me

and for a chick thats been broken hearted right infront of her face its kinda hard to trust a nikka

in carajo land....me entiendes ........no se pero espero que no me estes hablando mentira que

deverdad me kieres que si soy la mujer de tu vidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thoughts

lonely ,scary ,dead days,is what i have .

i wish you could brighten up my life.

i cant wait till i have you face to face.breathin mah same air.....

ill probbly faint when ur holdin mah hand,ill probbly die when you kiss me and hold me tight..

baby is crazy how you make me feel.this distance is sOo close to killing me ,bt imma pull it threw cuz i wanna make it to the day that im close to you .

my nights are mostly dark and weird

its like a thunderstrom that comes out randomly.and then your name pops out in mah head and its like im in the sunshine state .

you turn mah world upside down in a good way .i go from fear to feelin save .nobody ever made me feel this way...lol like jessica simpsions says YOU take mah breath alway haha.well yeah carlitos this is all i really got to say..ahhh im done for the day

esta distancia me mata

esta distancia me esta matando!
i cant take it any more ,ya quiero estar contigo
juntos tu y yo en la playa jodiendo y bebiendo.
sometimes thinking about how much i want to be close to you takes my sleep alway.
this distances got me restless,crazy..
i cant even concertrate in school
and the WORST part is that i havent seen you for a year and i still got like 6 months till i see you
adios mio!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!mi corazon tiene emocion pero a la misma ves llora pork yo kisiera ya estar aya.en mi pais junto ati.
i wish i was thier i wish you was here i wish we were togather anywhere.
estoy contontando los dias y creo que me falta 185 days on men this is tOO mani days.
yo toy muy enamorada para cojer los dias suave ...ya te kiero besar ,abrazar,tocar,matate a beso hehe
date dos calleta por freco..diache mamol //yo te kiero muchoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh ahi ahi ahi esta distancia me me mata