once again

just when i thought that things wouldt and couldt get better just when i thought i had wrote my very last blog fr him.just when i had made up my miind to beliveing it was all a game just when i shed every tear i ever hadd..he surprise meeee.....he actually showed me that i let my slef get cuaght up with my miind that i actually let my self to belive what other ppl sayy instead of belivein in mah heartt...its like godd is turning things around for us.i feel hiim closer then ever even though his so far alway..i feel like his my prince charming even though he has no gold to buy me things a princess may want or needdd..im truely happy for this turn around that has happen cuz when i was ready to give up..he didt he showed me that LOVE IS REAL AND THAT DISTANCE DOESNT ALWAYS WIN AND THAT THOSE SAD BLOG THAT I WROTE ABOUT HIM WAS JUST MY MIIND TRICKING ME.!!!and i usally would say his bullshittin me again but i CANT THIS TIME because this time i got this strong vibe that his really being real wid me his keeepinngg 100!!!just the way i like it..and now his even talking about our future togather and the things he wanna acomplish with me.men does it feel great to have someone to love and talk to on the phone late at night..now i know that sooner or later when we are togather itll be lke im in a whole diffrent world where NOTHING COULD EVER GOO WRONG!

best friends for life

im feeling really gratefull to have a friend like her...
i guess you have to go threw many bad friendshiip to actually know what it feels to have a real friend.
i actually learned my slef whats the meaning of the word friendship.
cuz after being friends with this chick i kindah notice i was being a bad friend all the timess
bt im glad that she showed me the right deffiniton and that im givein her the best of my frienshipp
..what i mostly like about this POpin shorty jajaja is that she jus like me
crazy
funny
werid
loud
and ummmm hersleffff
and havein a person who is almost like me and can be like my sister not jus a bestfriend is great
she hellps me threw everythinqq my boyfriend trouble in d.r lol my emotion reck,my recklessness and my weird ness
my words dont even describe how great it feels to have her by my side you knowww
she is like tottaly alsome and outtahh dis worldddddd
ahhhh meng LOl i LOVe you bestieee ((KATHY DIAZZZZ)))))))

it really didt

i promise myslef this is the last and truly blog ill ever write about him
bt before i stop i have to say.it really was all a game.yeah yeah so everyone else plus my concencia was right.he is a player he is a lier and the best part is he was useinme for my money.good thing is i got ppl over their that look out for me and tell me whats up and most importantly good thing i get over shit quick cuz if not i really could of been heart broken.
so yeah it wasnt what i wanted to be but o well.im not ganna streesss itt we live in a fantasy world with out a happy ending so imma jus contiune my life story wid out mah prince charmein.bt un like cinderella im not ganna cry un like cinderella im not ganna hideee.im going to be better and learn from my mistakes cuz these is going to help me to understant realationship better..also this experince taught me alot like men are really dirt bag oo and that DISTANCES REALATIONSHIP DONT WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mayb for others it can and if it do ill look up to them for ever cuz containing one is hardddd and stress fulll...bt enither way i think im going to let love come to me.cuz everytime i go after it i get pretty hurt or jus lOOk mad dum at the end ......i dont wish this boy anythin bad i wish godd can jus help him straighten up his life you kno take hiim out the streets so that they wont have to call his mom and tell her he died.i want god to get into his mind and show him that school is the right way to gooo..i wantt god to help him become a better man...and next time i talk to him i wanna hear him say his doing better then ever .cuz he found the right way..idk mayb im to bunch of holy right now.bt i dont wish him bad and i dont regret this mistake i jus want him and me to be happy and okey...+

09

2009 is here and ahh im kindah excited

well im really lookin forward for summer 0999

it should be very interestin gor me since im going to d,r and shit

ahh even though me and carlitos broke up im still lukin forward to seein him

cuz when im their nikkash imma tell hiss wifeyyy to bounce off cuz the official is here lmao

let me stop well imm not ganna be all like that bt its ganna be close to thattttt

i feel like 09 is mah dayum year and only 3 months till im 16 which means i can exchange mah permit for mah real one ahhhhhhhhhhh meng lol happy happy meee...

estoy super bien and i hope it stays that way for a long timmmeeeeeee